Thursday, September 25, 2008
today...
after maths lesson...
was walking off to ms sin's homeroom for drama meeting...
on the way...
in classroom D203...
i saw aaron(not his real name)!!!
he was wearing his huge cool glasses...
and dancing and singing to that tiger beer song!!!
lol
headed down to ms sin's homeroom after that...
still very excited inside...
when emily joined us...
she forgot that she left her foolscap paper over at mr phua's homeroom...
so i followed her to take it...
on our way back...
we walked pass room D203...
and this time...
he saw me!!!
he was like..
"eh santhya sister!!"
lol.
i just got really really happy!!!
after the meeting...
i,kady,emily and michelle lum...
we were walking out of sch...
when we saw him again!!!
he took a glance at me...
then continued walking...
so he was infront of me...
just outside the sch, walking to the bustop...
he truned around!!!
he saw me...
and he gave me that...
point-smile gesture...
it was pretty playful...
lol!!!
then...
he and his 2 friends standing each on one of his sides...
suddenly stop...
so i and michelle continued to walk past them...
trying hard not to notice...
and after we walked past them...
they were like...
Aaron: eh... yesterday my classmate died u know.
friend #1: really?! yesterday my classmate died too!
friend #2: so both ur classmates died?
Aaron and friend #1: yar...lols
Aaron: u know there's this girl called santhya?
she has a sister thats just like her!
both very dramatic...
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(cant rmb what he sed there)
always giggle giggle...
so hot also wear jacket..
black one somemore!!!
lol!
i cant rmb how it all ended...
anw...
all was good!!!
i enjoyed every part of it...
looked forward to a good today...
and i got it...
things are gonna get a whole lot better...
- Hazell Ray
well today...
is also one of my virtual friend's birthday...
i stayed up all night...
trying not to sleep...
i got really bored...
but i hung in there...
all just to wish him...
at 12 midnight.
after i wished him...
i never got a response...
it kinda hurts...
coz...
he's my kind of guy...
and i just realise he's...
gone...
so...
it's time to move on...
and forget all 8.
AND TIME TO START ANEW.
- Hazell Ray
today was pretty...
unsure...
it was whole lot of mixed up emotions...
din work out too well for me too day...
started off pretty dozey...
was tryna concentrate on bio...
ended up just staring into space...
common test was pretty easy...
staring wasnt a factor pulling my marks down...
during recess...
i felt kinda misfitted again...
there's this someone...
who makes me hate myself...
i dunno if she knows it or not...
im not gonna name her...
it might break her heart...
that spoilt my mood...
then comes spencer...
he owes me money...
he's got me real mad...
so mad that it was obvious...
even jerome could tell...
he was like "hazell angry..." to mathew...
most of my day...
just got ruined...
during maths...
michelle ang and i...
we were talking abt the way i felt...
she ended up crying...
and so did i...
during tc...
i suddenly felt alot better...
i think it was jaline...
we were suppose to make good-luck notes for sec 4s...
and she helped me out...
and made me feel alot better...
after leaving sch...
i saw spencer going home with crush #1...
havent seen crush #2 around...
but i left a special shoutout to him on the good-luck note...
today just felt...
pretty mixed up...
looking forward to a better tmr...
- Hazell Ray
Saturday, September 13, 2008
it sucks when you get to know...
that ur such a -something- person.
like ...
i dunno...
i met a #8...
some time ago...
and i told someone..
and i think she wasnt very happy about it...
and i din realise that it kinda hurt her...
until i read her blog...
it made me feel like crap...
cz most of the time...
im by her side...
and not knowing it's because of me...
makes me kind of a jerk...
and not a very good friend...
and ytd...
at the class outing...
one of me friends had a puking-peeing problem...
we hadda keep going back to mac...
so she could do either of the 'P' words.
i wore a pretty short dress...
so i couldnt do much either...
so she and i just walked around...
had small chats...
and ran back to mac whenever needed...
i think some poeple kinda 'got the wrong idea'...
maybe they thought we were avoiding them...
but we dun know for sure...
so...
i dunno...
if ive been a good person...
or a bad person...
il leave it to anyone else to deicide...
- Hazell Ray