Monday, July 28, 2008
i just don't like being in the middle...
it's like where a husband and wife get married..
and share a ring for 2 AND NOT 3!!!
but i guess i'l deal with what ever's happening...
it's very complicated...
my bluetack has a banana...
who im good friends with...
what isnt so good is that...
eversince she became her banana...
i've been less cared about..
or so i feel...
today...
we din even say a word to each other...
that's how bad it can get...
it might worsen...
n eventually...
the bluetacks go *POOF*...
thats what im afraid of...
i've never met someone just like me in yckss until i met jaline...
we just clicked in with each other...
the fact that we're not talking to each other means that smthn has got to be done...
i've been annoyed with her banana taking my friends away since last year...
but i've dealt with it...
i rmb telling her..
y break a friendship for my sake...
maybe i'l do just that...
i'l let my bluetack suit herself...
i can handle it...
like i told kady last year...
y break a friendship coz of me...
i'l be fine...
:(
i hope...
- Hazell Ray
Saturday, July 19, 2008
last week was a total bummer...
i was upset and blue...
but this week was a whole new story...
i was alot happier this week!!!
the happiest day was friday...
it was the first time i tried sims 2...
and guitar hero..
ALL THANKS TO IKY!!!
love that lil fellow!!!
i, kady and bluetack jaline had to help ms wong out...
there was this motivational talk for parents for graduating students...
and we were supposed to do the registration...
drama rehersal went well..
so it ended an hour early..
from 2.30, iky kept me company..
he taught me how to play sims2 and guitar hero...
then later...
kady joined us...
iky had tuition so he left at around 4...
when i and kady were together...
i teached her a few piano songs...
then bluetack dropped by after a bad period at the dance rehersal at st nicks...
we all sat at the piano playing songs till time was up...
then it was time for what we all came back for...
after our job was done....
we stuck around to hear the talk...
we were supposed to leave at 8.30 but ended up leaving only at 9.30...
but it was all worth it...
after the talk we walked to the bustop together n dispersed there...
yesterday.. was brilliant!!!
- Hazell Ray
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
these few days...
i just feel like i never fit in...
even though i have my own clique...
i just never seem to click in with em...
i feel like a real misfit...
my clique help cheer me up with a card...
but sadly it din work...
what can i say?!!
sometimes...
i just wish everyone was like me...
and we'd be the perfect clique..
but that's never gonna happen...
my friends treat me like crap..
or so i feel.
those who care total up to numbers below 10...
that's how trashed up my friendship with them is...
sometimes...
maybe being all alone would be better...
maybe i should turn to home schooling...
hire my own home teacher...
do what i want..
start my acting career...
and just totally forget about my friends...
if only i never had friends ever...
if only i never had to deal with crap like this...
I NEVER FIT IN!!!
AND IT SUCKS!!!
I HATE MY FRIENDS!!!
I HATE THEM ALL!!!
MY BLUETACK HAS HER BANANA!!!
SHE DUN NEED ME!!!
MY CLIQUE BEHAVES LIKE IM INVISIBLE!!!
THEY DUN NEED ME!!!
THE REST DUN NEED ME!!!
NO ONE NEEDS CHARLI!!!
EVEN TODAY...
FOR NATIONAL DAY...
CHAIRMEN AND VICES WERE APPAOINTED..
N I WASNT ONE OF THEM..
Y???
CZ THEY DUN NEED ME!!!!
NO ONE NEEDS ME!!!
I FEET LIKE TOTAL CRAP..
DAMN BLOODY FRIENDS TAKING OVER MY LIFE!!!!
IM NOT A PIECE OF PAPER..
NOT A PIECE OF WOOD!!!
STILL...
IM TREATED SO!!!!
CHARLI HATES HER LIFE!!!
CHARLI HATES HER FRIENDS!!!!
:(............. :(........... :(............... :(............... :(....................
- Hazell Ray