today was pretty much...
invisible...
it felt terrible!!!
in the morning...
jaline got a lil put off by smthtn....
so kept asking her if she was ok...
but she kept nodding only...
and she didn't look like she was alright at all...
it made me feel like an idiot...
she looked like she hated me...
so the rest of the time i din say anything...
after recess...
kady, jaline, weiping, ee shan and talia...
went up to english class without me...
and i was sitting with them in the canteen!!!
just that i was at the toilet when they were leaving...
like they ignored me!!!
as if the really hate me or smthn!!!
nicholas ang met me when i was going back into the canteen from the toilet...
he accompanied me the whole way...
with no one else...
outside mdm lam's classroom...
all of us were waiting to get it...
the class before us was 111...
many of my drama junes are from there...
kristin [karesia's sis] saw me...
she said hi...
and she asked me y i so lonely...
u poor lonely girl...
when she called me that...
it struck me...
i'm always alone!!!
i can nv depend on my friends...
when always depend on me...
[they making use of me!!!]
this botheres me...
today after coming home from the library...
i sat in my toilet for a solid half an hour...
crying...
stupid me..
i thought my friends were my life..
but i was wrong...
friends may be friends....
but they may nv be for life...
friendships dont always mean what u think they do...
- Hazell Ray