All In The Ray

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2009-03-25T06:21:00.000-07:00

Blogging's become a chore...
i think im done blogging!
XP

- Hazell Ray

if only...

2009-03-11T05:17:00.000-07:00

How i wish...

if only everyone in the world could be like me...

-Hazell Ray

damn it!

2009-03-05T08:08:00.000-08:00

i got all excited over this audition...
and the first person i told...
was the least expected...
i guess she's been the only one who's been of great help...
at times like these...
and after a long time...
i broke the silence...

so she's been trying to help.
auditions are in less than 36 hrs time...
and after thinking abt it...
i think il pass.

i feel real disappointed...
like...
that could have been my only chance...
and many of my come-back friends supported me...
i feel like ive led them and also myself down.

at the moment..
id say im still thinking...
but i dun have much time...

Lord...SAVE ME!!

-Hazell Ray

ouch!!!

2009-02-23T05:50:00.000-08:00

i was woken up...

at 3.45 in the morning...

itching all over!!!

i had no idea what was going on!!!

i just kept scratching like some dog!!!

it really hurt...

but i kept on scratching...

till i couldnt take it no more...

then splashed some cold water on the affected areas...

and back in bed...

at 4 on the dot...

it starts all over again!!!

it hurts like crazy!!!

and i have to get enough sleep for sch!!!

same procedures...

and then it died down.

got up this morning...

with bumps all over!!!

whatever bit me like this...

is gonna pay!!!

even now...

it still kinda itches! =(

-Hazell Ray

Dear ami ang!

2009-02-17T06:59:00.000-08:00

AMI MICHELLE ANG...
may be the kepo-est person on earth!!!
but thrs smthn abt ms kepo that i really adore!

it's smthn ive noticed...
when she does A maths assignments...

she's very persevering!!
like the questions are sick difficult!!
but ami michelle ang always get the answers!!
well...
after like HOURS of struggling that is...
but nevertheless...
she's victorious in the end!!

dear Michelle Ang...
pls rub some of that onto me please!!!

and thnx for teaching me...
and helping me for the past month and a half!!!
charli loves you!
CHARLI ADORES U!!
LOL.

-Hazell Ray

charli turned 15 on the 15th!!!

2009-02-16T05:32:00.000-08:00

FIFTEEN!!!!

THIS IS THE BEST BIRTHDAY I HAVE EVER HAD!!!

2-DAY CELEBRATION!!!

AND IT WAS AWESOME!!!

#1 Maranatha February Baby Party. (140209)

actually...

it was meant more for joyce...

cz she's turning 21.

but sean chew (to be 19), joel (19), amanda lek (17)

and i (15!!!) celebrated with her!!!

and it was damn fun!!!

we celebrated at Pasir Ris Costa Sands Resort...

we had a short fellowship after meeting from 6.30...

while waiting for the food...

then was dinner!!!

and after dinner....

was the funnest part!!!

the 5 of us cut the cake together!!!

followed by alot of pictures (by dorothy and rachael wong)...

then they counted down...

1....2...(sean holds plate of cake)...3! (smash right into joyce's face!!!)

it was damn funny...

i was last to kenna!!!

thankgoodness...NOT!!!

my jacket got some...

and my whole cheek!!!

thnx to that joyce!!!

lol...

before everything ended...

we watch a video that adison had prepared for joyce in just 10 hrs...

cz his computer crashed and 1 mnth's work just gone like that...

and he did an excellent job!!!

a half-hour video...

that ended the day off perfectly!!

#2 Coincidences (150209)

THE ACTUAL DAY!!!

Bryan and I share the same bday!!!

my cousin and godparents bought the same cake!! lol

my cousin and godpa mentioned the same words!

" they grow older so that we can grow younger" lol

#3 Lunch With My Godfamily

after class...

had to rush back home to welcome them and recieve blessings!

my maid cooked all my favourite food!!!

we had a great lunch!!!

and then was my 2nd cake!

and more pictures!!!

we had more chats...

then part one was over.

#4 Dinner With Cousin Anthony And Cousin-in-law Vanessa

after part one......

COMES PART 2!!!

they came over and we had a long chat as usual!

then we had a good dinner!!!

and then the cake!

THEY BOUGHT ME THE SAME AS MY GODPARENTS!!

LOL...

*if u can enjoy 2 good things...then why not?*

did i mention....

BENGAWAN SOLO?!!

YUP...

i had a real good bday!

celebrated with really good people!

to all of you who sent me wishes....THANKYOU!

to all those who gave me gifts....THANKYOU!

to all those that gave me cards....THANKYOU!

to maranatha prayer ministry.... THANKYOU!

to the 3 expensive cake buyers/bringers....THANKYOU!

to all those who had the thought....THANKYOU!

THANKYOU!

for making my 15th bday such a memorable one!!

the BESTEST bday i've ever had!!!

CHARLI LOVES YOU!! =)

lotsa love...Hazell Reyvathi Restan

-Hazell Ray

i wonder....

2009-02-09T04:20:00.000-08:00

Has Mas Selamat been caught already?!!

lol.

-Hazell Ray

she lent me her shoes...

2009-01-28T03:29:00.000-08:00

it's official...

there is NO MORE BLUETACK!

but why are we still so nice to each other?

well yup...

u can see the distance..

and u can feel the distance...

but i still smile at her and vice versa...

she lent me her shoes...

i never expected it...

shouldnt we like not care abt each other?

and try to move out of the atmosphere...

but instead we let the bad karma fill in between...

i dun really get what's going on...

im not part of their chew family...

and to be honest...

im not ok with it...

i feel like im being thrown out...

but i tolerate cz ive got other things to be happy about...

and it's the faith that keeps me going...

the hope that it will all be fine...

for every minute im angry i lose 60 seconds of happiness...

i don't think anyone can help me...

but if your're reading this and think u can...

pls do.

i dun want this stupid clique crisis to affect my life...

yup...

they see me smiling...

but what's really behind the smile?

only those who are wise enough to look beyond that will know...

-Hazell Ray

in particular....

2009-01-18T03:57:00.000-08:00

my favourite actress in particular...

LINDSAY LOHAN

my favourite colour in particular...
GREEN

my favourite camera (at the moment) in particular...

SONY CYBERSHOT T-77

my favourite album in particular...

BRITNEY SPEARS' BLACKOUT

my favourite american pop and R&B singer in pariticular...

CHRISTINA AGUILERA

my favourite hang out spot in particular...

TOILET

my ambition in particular...

ACTRESS

the alternative in particular...

MODEL/CHOREOGRAPHER/FASHION CONSULTANT

what i go shopping crazy over in particular...

CLOTHES

one thing i hate wearing in partcular...

MAKE-UP

my greatest asset in particular...

BILLION DOLLAR SMILE

my style in particular...

COVER THE ARMS AND SHOW THE LEGS...

one brit i go crazy over in particular...

AARON JOHNSON

the oldest thing i have in particular...

MY (PUNISHMENT) HANDPHONE

one thing il die to do in particular...

GO TO AMERICA TO ACT/MEET TYRA BANKS

what makes ppl think im mad in particular...

MY 3 MEMORY BOXES

my favourite line in particular...

IT'S ALL GONNA BE ALRIGHT!

yup...

in particular...

ive been going thru a few 'moments of my life'...

but it's all gonna be alright!

in particular...

IM GONNA BE FINE!

-Hazell Ray

SCHOOL SUCKS!!

2009-01-02T02:17:00.000-08:00

I used to just tell myself...
that my sch was a good school...
and that it's getting better...
no matter how lowsy it seemed...

until today...
i hate my school!!!
it's got totally polluted atmosphere!!!
polluted by chicken brained people...
and lots of negativity...
that actually came for my principal,VP and DM...
those ppl want us to change...
but we cant with all this negativity being thrown in our faces!!!

they compare us to other schools...
and say that our school isnt good enough...
they keep saying we are this..we are that...
but never mentioned what we could be...

if they say what they want..
they will get what they want!
and only positively good!

i want my sch to be better...
and my principal, VP, DM and teachers...
to speak what they want...
and with positivity and belief in their words...

and many of the students in my sch have chicken brains!!!
they make life in sch even worse!!!
they should better start living normal...

or i will get out of that school...
and put myself in a better environment!!!

-Hazell Ray

yesterday was bad...today was great!

2008-12-02T08:19:00.000-08:00

yesterday just wasnt really great...
i wasnt feeling right...
after drama...
kady and i met up with wp and jaline...
when we met...
i just felt this whole new atmosphere...
that wasnt good...
after that was prayer walk...
and i didnt feel good about that either...

then came today...
for spiritual preaperation...
i lifted up all my worries, and doubts and everything that wasnt right...
up to the lord...
this time was because...
we were in adoration and were silent throughout...
and i even cried as i prayed...
i asked god to free me of all these bad thoughts instilled in my head...
and god really answers prayers...

today...
although we were solemn in prayer....
i enjoyed myself throughout the whole journey...
from house to house...
and i went home happy!

sometimes...
u just don't feel like ur prayers are answered...
but after everything...
u realize that god is our all in all...
and he really does answer prayers...
be it directly or indirectly...
and i feel really blessed to be his child! =)

- Hazell Ray

sometimes...it just seems real stupid.

2008-11-26T01:00:00.000-08:00

time for drama rehersals...
and the first one din turn out to be good...

to be honest...
im starting to hate it...
it seemed unfair...
cz some of us were supposed to try out 2 different parts during the reading...
and that didnt happen...
i was supposed to try doing the part of vanessa and peck...
and kady was supposed to try vanessa too...
i had to read vanessa first...
and then there wasnt a second round..
which means that kady didnt even get a chance to try!!!
so she becomes understudy...
and i end up with a part that i dun want...

life isnt life...
if it's not unfair...
=(

-Hazell Ray

grad night.... GREAT NIGHT!!!

2008-11-19T23:33:00.000-08:00

Last night was one of the best nights of my life!!!

i had lots of fun...
great friends to share it with...
AND AARON SPOKE TO ME!!

we had a pretty bad start...
first, we walked the wrong way...
then it started to rain and none of us had an umbrella...
then the rain got so heavy...
and there was no shelter...
so we had to wait till the rain died down...
by the time we reached York Hotel...
we were like an hour late...
but that din stop us from working as usual!!!

we immediately got to work...
started on preparations...
and then it was show time!!!

kady and i were stationed at the photo booth...
we had to record the number of ppl taking the shot and which table number...
and during that time...
aaron was lining up!!!
and he saw me!!!
and as usual...
he was like, " SANTHYA SISTER!!!"
and i just grew real happy and excited!!!

when the doors closed...
we started having our mc donald's dinner outside...
and watched everything from outside...
it was a real great show!!!

halfway through...
we had to pack up the items
at the photo booth...
and there were stars pasted on the background!!
so asraf took out his camera and started to take photos!!!

by ASRAF.

Then there was this sabo game...
where we spread either wasabe or kaya on some bread...
and the audience know which is which...
and they had to lead the participants to eat the right piece bread...
some...
kenna sabo...
and some others...
had nice friends who led em to the kaya ones...
there were 10 participants and 20 pieces of bread...
so after everything...
we gave the bread away to the sec 4s...
i kept going "kaya sandwhich! kaya sandwhich!"
but so they all refused to take...
then i saw aaron and santhya talking...
and just nice i had 2 pieces with me!
so i went in between em and made them eat the sandwhich!!!
and guess what?!!
AARON DID!!!
lol!!!
and he sed it again!!
"SANTHYA SISTER!!!"
then he was like "u guys real sisters ah?!"
and we were like " NO!"
he was like " ofcourse...she doesnt look like a palanaisamy"
lol...
must be santhya's surname...

when that was finally done...
the SLC took a group photo on the stage...
had a few chats...
then ms wong gave us the 50 bucks for taxi fare...
we sed byebye...
and luckily...
there was a cab waiting just outside of the hotel and it was vacant...
so we hopped in and went home...

last night was the most memorable for me!
so many good things happened...
and i aint forgetting any of em!

- Hazell Ray

that's called a holiday?!

2008-11-13T23:53:00.000-08:00

almost half of the hols have gone past...

and im still not in the holiday mood...

reason being...

I DUN HAVE MUCH OF A HOLIDAY!!!

#1- japan trip

#2- prayer walk planning

#3- NE camp

#4- grad night

#5- rehersals and sec1 orientation

#1 JAPAN

the trip was great!!

evreything about it...

the poeple...

the environment...

the accomadations...

were all just great!

took up 7days...

but id say it was well spent...

il consider this a half-holiday...

(7days)

#2 PRAYER WALK

the planning is so very difficult!!

this year's theme is...

A family that prays together stays together...

we have to find a bible passage...

and it's taking me forever!!!

the actual prayer walk event is coming soon...

which means that we have to hurry up with the passage!!!

(5days+planning days)

#3 NE camp

im the only sec 2!!!

and it feels kinda awkward...

it's kinda hard to be the only sec 2 ard the sec 3s...

(3 days)

#4 Grad night

we (sec 2s) havent planned anything yet..

but i think that the sec 3s have it all under control.

(1 day)

#5 rehersals and sec1 orientation

syf is coming up...

so we gotta start rehersing...

and ours is considered a late start already...

rehersals are on a countless number of days...

each rehersal is 4 hours...

and then theres also sec1 oreintation...

i still rmb taking 2 min naps when ever possible the last time around...

but we always go home happy at the end of the day...

( 10 days)

now u can see....

that almost a month of my hols are taken up by activities...

what's worse is that my off days are in between...

so when im in party mood...

i gotta make a quick switch back...

which makes me not wanna party at all...

sometimes...

i wish i had more than just 1 month off....

I REALLY NEED A BREAK...

AND I REALLY NEED MY HOLS!!!

- Hazell Ray

a morning full of shit...

2008-10-30T19:37:00.000-07:00

skinnies are outdated...

tho it's still fashionable...

HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3 IS SO OUT OF THE QUESTION!!!

WHY IS EVERYONE LIKE BEGGING ME TO GO WATCH?!!

THE SONGS ARE NICE..MY FOOT!!

TO BE HONEST...

I THINK IT'S KINDA LAME!!

AND NO!!!

I AINT WATCHIN STUPID LAME HIGH SCH MUSICAL 3!!!

maybe i really dun fit in with em...

and probably just being used...

im never there...

and maybe...

i just shouldnt care...

and go fine some FRIENDS...

and those ppl ive been with before...

who knows what they are to me...

-Hazell Ray

finally!!!

2008-10-22T07:23:00.000-07:00

woohoo!!!

i kept thinking about what to give to talia...

she's finally 14...

and she's got a own unique taste...
so getting her a gift was kinda hard...

today...

i was clearing out my cupboard...

and i was gowing to throw this punjabi suit away...

when i had this brilliant idea!!!

i started off really bad...

i thought id make her a bag...

and uh...

it din work out...

thankfully...

the punjabi suit is made up of 3 pieces...

so i had enough cloth to make her smthn else...

i ended up making her....

A BRACELET!!!

it's 100% handsewn...

i couldnt find the sewing machine...

at first i kinda struggled with it too...

then it came together!!!

and i just couldnt be happier!!!

spent alot of time on it...

hope talia likes it!!!

- Hazell Ray

good day gone bad...

2008-10-21T06:17:00.000-07:00

today had a good start...

everything was well...

and i felt quite happy...

in the morning...

I ACHIEVED MY 20TH CERTIFICATE!!!

for some NE thing...

was pretty sure how i and xiu quan got it...

but not how the rest did...

lol

i passed every subject!!!

some were suprising...

and some were just plain careless...

assured A1 for maths and geog...

maybe science too...

tamil was as usual...

not A, not C, but B again...

and the seniors seemed to have done pretty bad...

so we'll see how it goes for next yr onwards...

here comes the bad part...

i filled in a survey wrongly!!!

my strongly agree was strongly disagree!!!

but we din have to write our name...

so i guess it's not so bad...

#2
i had mechtronics camp meeting...
and found out that i was emceeing with darren...
that's not the bad part...
the bad part was what happened after that...
and i think il not say it...

#3
i dun think i can trust the ones i trusted anymore...
i seem to be...
NOT-IN-THE-CLIQUE...
who knows what they did after sch together...
i wasnt part of it...
and no one really cared...
spoilt me for the whole day!!!
eversince what happened in #2.
i dun think i wanna be with them anymore...
and sometimes i feel so mean...
cz i seem to be using another group of ppl as my backup...
but now...
i guess those kiddos arent just backups anymore...
they were the ones i could really count on...

sucker...
loser...
what else could i be?!

-Hazell Ray

sometimes... lame..is the element of fun!!!

2008-10-17T02:03:00.000-07:00

if u look at my tag board...

ul find that it's kinda flooded...

with the name" jaline"...

and take a look at the timings...

it's hilarious!!

we just kept tagging at each other!!!

like a firecracker!!!

lol...

can't bellieve i actually did it!!!

bringing out the kid in me...

sure feels good!!

-Hazell Ray

what the xkdjhkdzfhgkuhik ?!!!!

2008-10-10T04:08:00.000-07:00

these few days...

was full of exams...

and streaming says it all...

it's suppose to be DIFFICULT!!!

sometimes...

maybe not so...

with the 'difficult paper' mindset...

no matter what paper...

i studied like crazy!!!

and when we recieved the exam paper...

it appeared kinda easy!!!

which was a plus point for me...

coz i never really study...

and if just the mugging got me that far...

it's a pretty lowsily set paper...

ok...

so maybe im exaggerating a lil bit...

here's a disclaimer...

the next paper is on monday...

maths...

rumoured to be DIFFICULT...

just like the rest...

but we'll see how...

it might just turn outta be like this week...

or it could be even better!!!

- Hazell Ray

when u gotta let go.....U GOTTA LET GO!!!!

2008-10-04T02:56:00.001-07:00

thursday was just hysterrical!!!

in place of the usual common test...

we were given a practice paper for the next day's english exam...

i did it like as if i was doing an exam...

then suddenly...............

I STARTED LAUGHING!!!

IT SOUNDED SO RETARTED!!

I WAS LAUGHING FOR NO APPARENT REASON!!!

JUST LIKE THAT!!!

OUT OF THE BLUES!!!

AND I USUALLY LAUGH LOUD...

I COULDNT DO THAT DURING A TEST!!!

SO I ENDED UP LOOKING LIKE AS IF I WAS CRYING!!!

WHAT WAS WORSE WAS THAT...

I COULDNT STOP LAUGHING!!!

IT JUST WENT ON AND ON...

LIKE REALLY LONG!!!

LOL!!!

head's started turning...

some got the right idea...

some thought i was sobbing...

it was CRAZY!!!

the next period was PC...

we had to do a survey...

and everyone was like asking me about it...

lol...

i felt like some nutheaded freak...

but i really couldnt control it!!!

well...

when u gotta let go....

U GOTTA LET GO!!!

- Hazell Ray

the guy who called me cute... yeep!

2008-09-25T23:31:00.000-07:00

today...

after maths lesson...

was walking off to ms sin's homeroom for drama meeting...

on the way...

in classroom D203...

i saw aaron(not his real name)!!!

he was wearing his huge cool glasses...

and dancing and singing to that tiger beer song!!!

lol

headed down to ms sin's homeroom after that...

still very excited inside...

when emily joined us...

she forgot that she left her foolscap paper over at mr phua's homeroom...

so i followed her to take it...

on our way back...

we walked pass room D203...

and this time...

he saw me!!!

he was like..

"eh santhya sister!!"

lol.

i just got really really happy!!!

after the meeting...

i,kady,emily and michelle lum...

we were walking out of sch...

when we saw him again!!!

he took a glance at me...

then continued walking...

so he was infront of me...

just outside the sch, walking to the bustop...

he truned around!!!

he saw me...

and he gave me that...

point-smile gesture...

it was pretty playful...

lol!!!

then...

he and his 2 friends standing each on one of his sides...

suddenly stop...

so i and michelle continued to walk past them...

trying hard not to notice...

and after we walked past them...

they were like...

Aaron: eh... yesterday my classmate died u know.

friend #1: really?! yesterday my classmate died too!

friend #2: so both ur classmates died?

Aaron and friend #1: yar...lols

Aaron: u know there's this girl called santhya?

she has a sister thats just like her!

both very dramatic...

***

*****

*******

*****

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(cant rmb what he sed there)

always giggle giggle...

so hot also wear jacket..

black one somemore!!!

lol!

i cant rmb how it all ended...

anw...

all was good!!!

i enjoyed every part of it...

looked forward to a good today...

and i got it...

things are gonna get a whole lot better...

- Hazell Ray

time to move on...

2008-09-25T01:31:00.000-07:00

well today...

is also one of my virtual friend's birthday...

i stayed up all night...

trying not to sleep...

i got really bored...

but i hung in there...

all just to wish him...

at 12 midnight.

after i wished him...

i never got a response...

it kinda hurts...

coz...

he's my kind of guy...

and i just realise he's...

gone...

so...

it's time to move on...

and forget all 8.

AND TIME TO START ANEW.

- Hazell Ray

unsure... =(

2008-09-25T00:51:00.000-07:00

today was pretty...

unsure...

it was whole lot of mixed up emotions...

din work out too well for me too day...

started off pretty dozey...

was tryna concentrate on bio...

ended up just staring into space...

common test was pretty easy...

staring wasnt a factor pulling my marks down...

during recess...

i felt kinda misfitted again...

there's this someone...

who makes me hate myself...

i dunno if she knows it or not...

im not gonna name her...

it might break her heart...

that spoilt my mood...

then comes spencer...

he owes me money...

he's got me real mad...

so mad that it was obvious...

even jerome could tell...

he was like "hazell angry..." to mathew...

most of my day...

just got ruined...

during maths...

michelle ang and i...

we were talking abt the way i felt...

she ended up crying...

and so did i...

during tc...

i suddenly felt alot better...

i think it was jaline...

we were suppose to make good-luck notes for sec 4s...

and she helped me out...

and made me feel alot better...

after leaving sch...

i saw spencer going home with crush #1...

havent seen crush #2 around...

but i left a special shoutout to him on the good-luck note...

today just felt...

pretty mixed up...

looking forward to a better tmr...

- Hazell Ray

why me?!!

2008-09-13T06:09:00.001-07:00

it sucks when you get to know...

that ur such a -something- person.

like ...

i dunno...

i met a #8...

some time ago...

and i told someone..

and i think she wasnt very happy about it...

and i din realise that it kinda hurt her...

until i read her blog...

it made me feel like crap...

cz most of the time...

im by her side...

and not knowing it's because of me...

makes me kind of a jerk...

and not a very good friend...

and ytd...

at the class outing...

one of me friends had a puking-peeing problem...

we hadda keep going back to mac...

so she could do either of the 'P' words.

i wore a pretty short dress...

so i couldnt do much either...

so she and i just walked around...

had small chats...

and ran back to mac whenever needed...

i think some poeple kinda 'got the wrong idea'...

maybe they thought we were avoiding them...

but we dun know for sure...

so...

i dunno...

if ive been a good person...

or a bad person...

il leave it to anyone else to deicide...

- Hazell Ray

=(

2008-08-29T05:43:00.000-07:00

These few days...

just sorrowful...

Teachers's Day cum ACES Day cum Sports Day...

we won second for sport stacking!!! =)

our party for mr tie was a disaster!!!=(

wasnt even happening!!

there were so many things...

and everything was just so mundane!!

we're all sick...

my mum's arm is weak...

my dad lost his voice..

and my darn nose doesnt wanna stop leaking!!!

really...

not good...

-Hazell Ray

im RUINING MY OWN LIFE!!!!

2008-08-22T05:20:00.000-07:00

Arts Binalle was a great experience...
i got a kiss from my crush!!!
this time...
some time after...
the effect came after the event...
here's what happened...

after Arts Binalle...
everyone knows my face...
especially this guy...
i'ma nickname him, "Aaron"...

after PE one friday...
we were walking in opposite directions...
when we were gonna pass each other...
then he was pointing to me..
and telling his friend...
"eh!! that's the CUTE GIRL with the dumbell!!"...
ok...
thats what i heard...
but i dun think that was what he sed...
emphasis is on "CUTE GIRL" here...
he actually called me cute!!!

right then..
i started to fall for him...

once...
outside geog classroom...
he was telling his another friend..
this time female..
he was like...
"eh!!! Look!! santhya's sister!!"
and she was like...
" eh!! omg!! really ah?!! "
and he was like...
" no la... but look like right?! santhya's twin! *chuckle*"...

HE ACTUALLY NOTICED ME!!!
now, that doesnt happen all the time...

today...
i saw both my crushes...
many times!!!
but i din say hi...
niether did they...

so i dun know anything going on right now...
maybe it's time for me to stop falling for guys...
it happens so often!!!

anw, i heard Aaron has a girlfriend...
and the crush mentioned before...
wants to be laid back by 16 (sick lil fellow)...

.........

-Hazell Ray

busy busy me

2008-08-06T07:14:00.000-07:00

this week was nuts!!!

project after project!!!

i just din have much time on my own...

i planned many htings to accomplish...

and not one of the items i listed!!!

it's already busy..

it may just get busier...

till next time..

*urgh*

- Hazell Ray

great and great!!!

2008-08-02T05:21:00.000-07:00

i think Thursday was the best day this month!!!
it was the day of a very well done drama performance...
and also the day i and my bluetack became friends again...

we spent so much time on that one performance..
and it was all worth it!!!
we gave it our best shot...
and indeed it was good...
the audience loved it tons and tons!!!

something else happened...
which made me real happy!!!
my crushed hugged me!!!
n he asked for it..
i din give it to him..
HE gave it to ME!!!
=D

the day before...
we were playing super dirty hardcore truth or dare...
he was dared to kiss me..
and he did!!!
=D

that night...
i sms-ed my bluetack for the first time in a week...
she actually replied!!!
we just started talking!!!
n for got all abt what happened last Saturday...
=D

from the sad and gloomy Charli...
to =D Charli!!!

- Hazell Ray

drops once again.

2008-07-28T04:33:00.000-07:00

i just don't like being in the middle...
it's like where a husband and wife get married..
and share a ring for 2 AND NOT 3!!!

but i guess i'l deal with what ever's happening...
it's very complicated...
my bluetack has a banana...
who im good friends with...
what isnt so good is that...
eversince she became her banana...
i've been less cared about..
or so i feel...

today...
we din even say a word to each other...
that's how bad it can get...
it might worsen...
n eventually...
the bluetacks go *POOF*...
thats what im afraid of...
i've never met someone just like me in yckss until i met jaline...
we just clicked in with each other...
the fact that we're not talking to each other means that smthn has got to be done...
i've been annoyed with her banana taking my friends away since last year...
but i've dealt with it...
i rmb telling her..
y break a friendship for my sake...
maybe i'l do just that...
i'l let my bluetack suit herself...
i can handle it...
like i told kady last year...
y break a friendship coz of me...

i'l be fine...
:(
i hope...

- Hazell Ray

things are starting to go the opposite way.. =)

2008-07-19T08:49:00.000-07:00

last week was a total bummer...

i was upset and blue...

but this week was a whole new story...

i was alot happier this week!!!

the happiest day was friday...

it was the first time i tried sims 2...

and guitar hero..

ALL THANKS TO IKY!!!

love that lil fellow!!!

i, kady and bluetack jaline had to help ms wong out...

there was this motivational talk for parents for graduating students...

and we were supposed to do the registration...

drama rehersal went well..

so it ended an hour early..

from 2.30, iky kept me company..

he taught me how to play sims2 and guitar hero...

then later...

kady joined us...

iky had tuition so he left at around 4...

when i and kady were together...

i teached her a few piano songs...

then bluetack dropped by after a bad period at the dance rehersal at st nicks...

we all sat at the piano playing songs till time was up...

then it was time for what we all came back for...

after our job was done....

we stuck around to hear the talk...

we were supposed to leave at 8.30 but ended up leaving only at 9.30...

but it was all worth it...

after the talk we walked to the bustop together n dispersed there...

yesterday.. was brilliant!!!

- Hazell Ray

charli's a total misfit!!!

2008-07-09T05:09:00.000-07:00

these few days...

i just feel like i never fit in...

even though i have my own clique...

i just never seem to click in with em...

i feel like a real misfit...

my clique help cheer me up with a card...

but sadly it din work...

what can i say?!!

sometimes...

i just wish everyone was like me...

and we'd be the perfect clique..

but that's never gonna happen...

my friends treat me like crap..

or so i feel.

those who care total up to numbers below 10...

that's how trashed up my friendship with them is...

sometimes...

maybe being all alone would be better...

maybe i should turn to home schooling...

hire my own home teacher...

do what i want..

start my acting career...

and just totally forget about my friends...

if only i never had friends ever...

if only i never had to deal with crap like this...

I NEVER FIT IN!!!

AND IT SUCKS!!!

I HATE MY FRIENDS!!!

I HATE THEM ALL!!!

MY BLUETACK HAS HER BANANA!!!

SHE DUN NEED ME!!!

MY CLIQUE BEHAVES LIKE IM INVISIBLE!!!

THEY DUN NEED ME!!!

THE REST DUN NEED ME!!!

NO ONE NEEDS CHARLI!!!

EVEN TODAY...

FOR NATIONAL DAY...

CHAIRMEN AND VICES WERE APPAOINTED..

N I WASNT ONE OF THEM..

Y???

CZ THEY DUN NEED ME!!!!

NO ONE NEEDS ME!!!

I FEET LIKE TOTAL CRAP..

DAMN BLOODY FRIENDS TAKING OVER MY LIFE!!!!

IM NOT A PIECE OF PAPER..

NOT A PIECE OF WOOD!!!

STILL...

IM TREATED SO!!!!

CHARLI HATES HER LIFE!!!

CHARLI HATES HER FRIENDS!!!!

:(............. :(........... :(............... :(............... :(....................

- Hazell Ray

boo sickling me!! =(

2008-06-20T07:24:00.000-07:00

i am sick!!

n i'm getting sicker....

sch's gonna start!!!

i am in deep shit...

n i dunno how to get out of it...

i'm going down the drain right now...

i dun have the go-to-sch attitude back...

n im sick..

i'm such a mess...

i'm such a wreck!!

boo sickling me!! =(

-Hazell Ray

7 things i hate about me =( , 7 things i like about me =)

2008-06-14T04:48:00.000-07:00

THE 7 THINGS I HATE ABOUT ME...

#1 im over tanned :(

#2 im not a shawty but a shortie :(

#3 ive got yellow eyes :(

#4 im a terrible poser :(

#5 i dont have beautiful fingers :(

#6 i dun get what i want...not a lot, atleast :(

and the 7th thing i hate the most about me...

im almost insecure... :(

compared to all the good things...

that would take too long to write...

i should probably mention...

the 7 that i like....

THE 7 THINGS I L IKE ABOUT ME..

#1 that shape i've got that gives me my hot-bod!!! =)

#2 that positive attitute!!! =)

#3 that sweet bubbly me!!! =)

#4 the way i speak and my acting!!! =)

#5 my fashion sense!!! =)

#6 my friends!!! =)

and the 7th thing i like the most about me...

MY SMILE!!! =)

there u go ya'lls...

the 7 things i hate about me...

the 7 things i like about me...

the ultimate thing i like the most that i do...

I MAKE ME LOVE ME!!!
=D =D=D

-Hazell ray

give me a break!!! im begging

2008-06-10T23:34:00.000-07:00

times get terrible this holiday...

it wasnt much of a holiday for me!!!

in total...

i get only abt 2 weeks off!!!

here's what's cost me my holiday...

i had drama cast rehersal!!!

for 4 days!!!

on tuesday...

we had to collect our scripts...

so that was the only day of the 5 days which had no rehersal...

cambodia.

i was in cambodia for 5 days!!!

well... i gotta admit it was kinda fun...

but it took up my holiday!!!

5 days of it!!!

here's my day off...

thursday, 5th june 08.

church camp.

this time was really emotional..

i cried twice...

it was a productive camp..

but again...

MY HOLIDAY!!!!

just came back on sunday...

that day, we went out shopping!!!

the next day we went swimming!!!

yesterday was another resting day...

so is today...

im gonna be having drama cast rehersal tmr and friday...

i've got next monday and tuesday off...

i gt head back to sch for rehersal again on wednesday and friday...
thursday my beloved bluetack's comin over for project...
then we hit the movies...

so looking at everything i've written...
don't u think i deserve a break?!!

Hazell Ray

me and you and a setting in a honeymoon....

2008-05-23T04:27:00.000-07:00

These few days...

the dreams just kept coming up...

my bluetack and i...

we were into joakim and chris....

for quite sm time...

and i have the craziest dream in the universe!!!

i was at joakim gomez's blog yesterday...

i heard the podcast recordings...

he was on dan and young's morning show on 987fm...

i kept listening to the same recording over and over again!!!

joakim's more of an inspiration...

he's just like me!!!

he's interedsted in every aspect of The Arts...

just like me!!!

one day...

i'ma be just like him!!!

only a lil less criticised..

but you can't please eveyone...

as long as you've brought across a message...

ur job is done...

so thats dream #1...

now...

Chris Brown...

my bluetack's been getting a lil sick of him...

me too actually..

but i'm not into the song really...

i'm more into the voice...

he's got oe that's really unique...

like, have u seen anyone else that sings like this?!!

the tone of it drives me crazy!!!

i dreamt that i and chris had 5 kids!!!

thats nuts!!!

but like every other celeb...

ater sometime...

the dreams are what u laugh at...

when u grow out of being their fan...

that's dream #2...

here comes #3...

i've been into Tokio Hotel's Ready Set Go for a while...

and i found out that Tom and Bill are twins!!!

born on the 1st of september 1989...

it's hard to notice the similarities in thier features...

cz they've got 2 completely different hairstyes...

but they're both friggin cute!!!

the ppl mentioned...

are just the cutest things on earth!!!

and dreams....

may just remain dreams...

if kept in a bottle...

i'ma do smthn...

[i dunno what yet]...

and fullfil my dreams!!!

- Hazell Ray

burn baby burn!

2008-04-12T02:47:00.000-07:00

today...

i wanted to throw some rubbush into the bin...

that was in the kitchen...

so i walked in threw away my rubbish...

my maid was frying chiken then...

the took the lid off and held it in the air...

my arm accidentally touched it!!!

so i kenna almost 2nd degree burn.

for the first minute...

i put my arm under running water...

then my maid put butter which will heat it up even more!!!

later on my mother...

(she's a nurse thats good enough to become doctor)

(coz of financial reason and lack of recognition...)

(singapore didnt let her become one)

she helped me dress my wound...

then she got me to put an ice pack over it...

the pains died down the the black mark is still there...

it's getting better...

can't wait for it to be fine again...

- Hazell Ray

how blutack... and why bluetack?!!

2008-03-25T05:26:00.000-07:00

this seems crazy...

but i dunno exactly why myself...

but here's how...

i dunno how it started...

but right after we did...

i started drawing these pictures...

it was like...

2 palms- one jaline's, the other mine...

in between is this ball - the bluetack...

n then i stared drawing other body parts like legs,shoulder and even head!!!

on the way home...

we were talking abt the things we like...

and almost everything we like are the same things...

#white roses#green

#wanna dance

#wanna model

n we both think joakim gomez is cool!!!

almost every of our interest is the same!!!

so thats how...

n the part where i listed our interest...

that's part of the why...

so jaline n charli...

BLUETACKED FOR LIFE!!!

- Hazell Ray

i walk a lonely raod...

2008-03-24T07:55:00.000-07:00

today was pretty much...

invisible...

it felt terrible!!!

in the morning...

jaline got a lil put off by smthtn....

so kept asking her if she was ok...

but she kept nodding only...

and she didn't look like she was alright at all...

it made me feel like an idiot...

she looked like she hated me...

so the rest of the time i din say anything...

after recess...

kady, jaline, weiping, ee shan and talia...

went up to english class without me...

and i was sitting with them in the canteen!!!

just that i was at the toilet when they were leaving...

like they ignored me!!!

as if the really hate me or smthn!!!

nicholas ang met me when i was going back into the canteen from the toilet...

he accompanied me the whole way...

with no one else...

outside mdm lam's classroom...

all of us were waiting to get it...

the class before us was 111...

many of my drama junes are from there...

kristin [karesia's sis] saw me...

she said hi...

and she asked me y i so lonely...

u poor lonely girl...

when she called me that...

it struck me...

i'm always alone!!!

i can nv depend on my friends...

when always depend on me...

[they making use of me!!!]

this botheres me...

today after coming home from the library...

i sat in my toilet for a solid half an hour...

crying...

stupid me..

i thought my friends were my life..

but i was wrong...

friends may be friends....

but they may nv be for life...

friendships dont always mean what u think they do...

- Hazell Ray

it feels like holy spirit!!!

2008-03-22T01:34:00.000-07:00

on thurday...

my family head down to church for the maundi thursday service...

my brother was serving so we all went down an hour early....

after mass we went back home for a fast dinner...

picked up raj annae and uncle joe...

then we started our church visiting...

#1 holy spirit church

#2 novena church

#3 st ignatuis

#4 sacred heart church

#5 st bernadette

if i'm not wrong.. we went to st theresa's too.

at the various churches...

i prayed for ...

#1 jaline's family

#2 eeshan's mood swings

#3 fadilah

#4 my emo cousin who's drifting away from god [and from me]

#5 my family

so yea...

i know that with god all things are possible...

n there's been an emotional problem in these people...

and i want them to feel better...

so i prayed specially for them...

- Hazell Ray

4 minutes...tick-tock tick-tock tick-tock

2008-03-19T07:44:00.000-07:00

if you're out of town...

all you got is four minutes...

what would you do?!

if the world were to die in four minutes...

and only a true hero can save us...

would you be that hero?!

i didn't realise how important this was...

until i listened to the madonna song, 4 minutes

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FR2Z_Tp0IOo&NR=1

there's so much problem!!!

global warming...

unusual winds...

crazy weather...

the main one here...

i think..

is global warming...

we can all be that special hero n do our part to save the world...

four minutes should do just the trick...

well.. that is if everyone plays a part...

further more...

it's not alot...

4 minutes is a very small fraction of the day.

n if everybody makes an effort...

we'll make our environment a safer place to live in...

so all u guys reading this....

start being that hero...

be him TODAY!!!

- Hazell Ray

this you gotta see!!!

2008-03-14T06:59:00.000-07:00

i was just browsing...
when i came across this video...
i kept laughing my head off!!!

3 yrs ago...
my elder younger brother ( turning 13 this yr )...
went crazy over drums!!!
we couldn't afford a real set...
or atleast there was no place to put it if we had one...
my brother is very creative...
he used to make things out of cardbaord...
he actually made a 3d car..
with the door u can open and everything..
an electric guitar...
n in this case...
a set of drums...

his idol - Travis Barker from the band Blink 182...
i had no idea he actually video taped himself...
playing on his home-made drums...

HIS DRUMS ARE MADE OF...
#1 Cardboard
#2 metal plates
#3 chairs
#4 a circular side table

my brother is AMAZING!!!
n what he's done is AMAZING!!!
check it out.

so someone out there does know!

2008-03-14T06:04:00.000-07:00

just when i thought this unending rain couldn't stop...
i just had to watch the news last night....
n i found out that there was a reason!!!
some wind had pushed the clouds over the
pacific ocean over to southeast asia...
thats what's caused the non-stop raining..
those ppl also predicted that there'l be no rain today...
and the predict good!!!
there was NO rain today!!!

thats a good thing coz i had a course today at evergreen sec..
i was almost late yesterday!!!
n today ..
i was the first to reach!!!
[left my house at 1pm each day]
after the course ended yesterday...
two buses came and left...
and everyone tried to squeeze in till there was no space!!!
n in the end took a cab down to woodlands mrt station...
it gets kinda hungry waiting...
so i took no chances...
i thought the train wouldn't be as packed...
but even the train was crowded!!!
at the bustop at the mrt station everyone was waiting under the shelter...
and it was so squeezy!!!
n the bus was too!!!
it took me 2 hours to get home!!!
n today..
it took me less than 1 hour to get home...

so u see the difference?!!
rain brings gloom...
n a lil bit of sunshine does it.

- Hazell Ray

this GEO sucks!!!!!

2008-03-12T03:15:00.000-07:00

i dun get this whole Geo thing!!!
the telepathy of earth....
is just not understandable!!!

what the-?!!
it rained Monday....
it rained yesterday...
n it's raining again today!!!
it's terribly heavy!!!
and the rain doesn't stop till hours later!!!
this means....
almost no sun at all!!!!
then how is it possible that evaporation contributes to this?!!

i don't get a thing that's going on!!!
someone ... pls tell me!!!
i dun think anyone can!!!
nobody would be able to explain such weird conditions of the earth!!!

oh boy...
*sigh*
beats me....

- Hazell Ray

guess it aint all that bad

2008-03-11T01:23:00.000-07:00

yesterday...
i set off at 7 in the morning...
had a tamil camp...
wasnt excited at all...
the fact was...
i wasn't even look forward to it!!!

i took my tamil teachers word...
attented the camp...
and found it lotsa fun!!!
that was wierd coz tamil - totally not my thing!!!

there was a dance competition...
a group of guys from yishun secondary took part...
n they won!!!
but that's because they had an X factor.
no one else did..
there was that smthn that outshined them.

so i guess..
my monday wasn't wasted...
day well-spent!

- Hazell Ray

" SO STUPATE!!!"

2008-03-05T05:52:00.000-08:00

Ivy is really funny!!!
she's got this very unique way of talking...
n it makes me laugh always!!!

#1
when she says 'want'...
she actually emphasizes on the 'T' sound...
n we usually dun pronounce the 'T' at the end...

#2
when she says so stupid...
it's sounds like...
" so stupate!!!"
lols!!!

#3
the way she greets you...
we people go ... HAI.
Ivy goes ... HA-YEE!!!
thats the funniest!!!

she's damn funny!!!
but hey...
it's her way of talking and it's special and unique...
so be it...

[ivy if ur reading this...
i want u to know...
that...
ur talking's awesome!!!]

- Hazell Ray

[ me + 24 hours] - food = sacrifice

2008-03-02T06:04:00.000-08:00

this weekend...
was the weekend when youths from everywhere...
came together to fast for the poor...
[ ME + 24 hours ] - FOOD = sacrifice...

yesterday ard 1.20...
met Talia then together...
we head to CHIJ - Toa payoh...
took a while to get there..
got kinda lost...
but ppl ard gave us directions...
so in the end...
we found our way...

at CHIJ - TP...
we saw carrie..
i learnt that her name was...
CARRIE-ANNE...
met her and her brother...

at 3.00 sharp...
we pledged to fast for 24 hours...
wasn't too bad coz we had lotsa activities going on...
didn't feel hungry one bit!!!

we learnt 3 new songs...
#1 - trading my sorrows
#2 - i wanna see jesus lifted high
#3 - Everyday
the songs are so fun!!!
we actually did actions and danced to em...

3 ppl spoke to us as well...
first up was mr Augustine from the catholic youth movement...
he told us abt how we can make a difference...
when we ask christ to help someone...
the next one was clement - an ex-convict...
in his early days...
he's been in and out of jail...
he had a very serious ear damage..
doctors told him that only a surgery would save him...
clement nv really believed in god...
until he gave it a shot n asked god to heal it for him...
true enough...
it happened...
miraculous...
with the help of god!!!

they showed us 2 videos..
first one was abt the burmists monks going on silent protest...
so many were killed!!!
the other was abt ppl in Philippines...
they sleep in cardbaord boxes...
and live on the rich's rubbish...
absolutely sad to see them live in such poverty...
so we...
the youths...
prayed for these people...
that their lifestyle could change...
that they would have more justice...

after all that..
some time ard 9.30 pm...
we had a confession service..
Talia started crying..
i dunno y..
n i felt bad because i didn't try to comfort her..
after sometime..
she calmed down...

this morning...
we packed food into plastic bags...
then hhead down to the elderly residents' block...
the one room flats...
we went to a few units n distributed the food to the elderly...
they were very happy when they saw us...
these ppl's children have left them all alone...
how thoughtless!!!
it's up to us to make a differnce!!!

we ended our fast with sunday mass...
father David came down...
and conducted the service for us...
right after that ..
the whole lot of us head down to the canteen for photo taking and lunch!!!
n there's where it all ended...

Trading My Sorrows

I'M TRADING MY SORROWS
I'M TRADING MY SHAME
I'M LAYING EM DOWN
FOR THE JOY OF THE LORD!!!

YES LORD YES LORD YES YES LORD!!!
YES LORD YES LORD YES YES LORD!!!
YES LORD YES LORD YES YES LORD!!!
AMEN!!!

I'M TRADING MY SICKNESS
I'M TRADING MY PAIN
I'M LAYING EM DOWN
FOR THE JOY OF THE LORD!!!

YES LORD YES LORD YES YES LORD!!!
YES LORD YES LORD YES YES LORD!!!
YES LORD YES LORD YES YES LORD!!!
AMEN!!!

GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!!!
ALL THE TIME GOD IS GOOD!!!

- Hazell Ray

for every bad thing... there's smthn good!!!

2008-02-28T03:00:00.000-08:00

yesterday...
we had training for 2.4km run...
like i told u in the previous post...
threw up..
today...
more burdens to bear!!!

when i got up this mornin...
my legs hurt like crazy!!!
both legs were cramped!!!
i walked ard in sch with my painful legs..
and everywhere i went...
ppl kept asking me...
"u ok?!!"...."what happened to ur feet?!!"
that bothers me..
coz i dun really like it when ppl pity me...
and start bombarding all sorts of questions to show me they are concerned...

here's the good part...
...................................................
for the 24-hour fast...
we had to collect money for donations...
n i asked the whole class and they actually supported me!!!
that was so awesome!!!
dillion gave a dollar...
galvin donated 2...
n guang ming gave me $3...
the biggest amount on my list was zhi hong with $3.50 more...
the ultimate - JALINE!!!
she donated a solid $5!!!
GO BLUETACK!!!

i love 203!!!
even spencer donated!!!
fadilah helped me out alot!!!
she went ard the whole class to help me ask them!!!
i could've nv achieved such good results without her!!!
n now...
my list's almost filled up completely!!!
thnx to all who contributed!!!

these friends...... are totally awesome!!!

- Hazell Ray

run like the wind!!!... and drink it right!!!

2008-02-27T02:20:00.000-08:00

for PE today...
we had to run 2 separate rounds...
training up for the actual 2.4km run...

round #1...
was among the first!!!
turned out to come in 4th runner of the level!!!
took GULPS of water...
that was before ms heng sed...
"don't gulp down ur water no matter how thirsty!!!"
" u guys'll vomit from that!!"

round #2...
couldnt do as well as the first time...
was among the first 20 ppl...
this time...
was really worn out...
totally forgot what ms heng told us!!!
just gulped down water like there was no tmr!!!
that's when i started feeling uneasy...
i went to ms heng for permission to use the ladies'...
but told me that we were gonna end soon and told me to wait...
so i waited...
after we were dismissed...
jaline took one look at me..
and asked me...
" u ok?"
n i was like...
" i dun feel so good..."
n she was like..
"u wait here. i go get ur bag."
today's time table's really heavy...
n i din want her to carry an extra amt of weight...
so i walked towards her...
along the way...
i bend down n felt like i was gonna-...
-u know...
n after three fruitful minutes of waiting..
i finally did...
i barfed everything i had to out...
and after that...
it felt like heaven...

great friends like jaline, rika n maha...
brought my stuff up for me!!!
how nice of em!!!
if they need anything..
i'm every ready for payback time!!!

so from today...
i learnt..
that if u drink too much water when ur hearts pumping at a high speed...
it's a 100 % chance u'll barf...
so run right...drink right!!!
n what comes ard goes ard..
those who stay by u no matter what..
are ur truest friends...
n u'll be there if u care abt em like they did for u...

- Hazell Ray

what's with the hair?!!

2008-02-26T03:27:00.000-08:00

mathew's hair bothers me alot...
he seems to have spent lotsa time on it...
spending time making it look bad!!!

i dunno...
when he came back to sch...
he had this really cool hairstyle!!!
then all of a sudden...
the fringe falls back down over his forehead...
n the hair behind the fringe part stands up?!
n kinda bends to one side?!

i dun get the hair one bit!!!
maybe he's trying to save up on his gel...
or maybe...
it's suppose to look like that?!!
right...
things are changing really fast...
n sometimes when they do...
they ain't changing for the better...

- Hazell Ray

a hell of a physics paper!!!

2008-02-21T05:18:00.000-08:00

like WHAT THE HELL!!!
ms soo happens to be hit by a car..
according to ppl who've been saying it.
if she can't make it for lessons...
she should atleast get a substitute!!!
we did not have lessons for 4 days straight!!!
n missed the topic on refraction!!!
n todays common test - SCIENCE!!!

for physics..
we were suppose to learn reflection n refraction..
n for bio...
digestion...

we were told that questions on refraction were gonna come out..
so the whole class concentrated on refraction alone!!
since it wasn't taught...
and absolutely forgot abt reflection n digestion!!!

the worst part is..
all that came out for physics...
was reflection!!!
we kinda wasted alot of time...
and..
was not worth while one single bit!!!

if only we had more brains!!!
what m i talking abt?!!
i mean...
IF ONLY SOME PPL KNEW EXACTLY WHAT THEY WERE TALKING ABT!!!
*damn pist

- Hazell Ray

what a day in the cd shelter!!!

2008-02-20T03:54:00.000-08:00

maybe i gotta lower down myself a lil...
y does every teacher nominate me for any sch presentations?!!
arggh!!!
gets annoying sometimes!!!

this time..
ms heng nominated me to brief the sec 1s on our sch's bomb shelter...
briefing them was a total bomb that the shelter could not save!!!
lotsa things went on...

#1
totally stuffy!!!
man it was so hot n humid...
we stayed in there for a maximum of 10 mins flat!!!
the sec 1s had to write reflections...
the heat was terribly intense...
we had to go back out to get fresh air...
n do their reflections outside!!!

#2
they either 13 or gonna be...
so lets use our common sense...
maturity level - LOW
almost every class was a nuisance!!!
all except for 102 and 101...
the best was 101..
so obedient n automatic...
had no trouble with em at all!
without a teacher...
that class could make it...
102 was controlled by ms phua...
she's got this X-factor that makes her friendly and strict..
and no one..
ABSOLUTELY NO ONE hates ms phua...
wonder where she gets it from...
n back to our subject..
they were such a pain!!!
luckily for me..
Eunice and fadzanah took care of the disciplining...
all i had to do was...
brief em...
n yup...
din get all the respect i wanted...
but it's all over now...
long past gone...

#3
missed a whole day of lessons!!!
how can i write tmr's test if i miss one whole period?!!
it's impossible!!!
n relying on friends to teach me..
not so safe...
i'm mising homework!!!
i gotta take my class tests after sch!!!
it's even more troublesome than i expected!!!

but now i think...
lowering myself down might increase time for myself...
but will danger my results!!!
super dilemma!!!
gonna take me yrs to decide!!!

- Hazell Ray

the hut's earned a solid 40 bucks!!!

2008-02-18T03:23:00.000-08:00

today was the awesome-est day out!!!

JEASH( jaline-eeshan-apple-sokkhing-hazell)
hung out after sch at the Hut in central....
spent abt 1.5 hours there...

first...
we had our order up...
sok khing and eeshan had the personal hawaiian...
apple n i went for baked rice..
and jaline had the red-sauced pasta...

we all looked at each others' dishes...
n JEASH concluded...
the best dish..
MINE!!!

this shows..
that when it comes to italian food...
or atleast something in Pizza Hut...
i got good taste...
nif u want any recomendation...
u guys out there should come to..
ME!!!

so we had our scrumptious meal...
had a few gossips...
then fell down to the position where we licked the plate clean...
n could eat no more!!!
we talked some more...
then decided to get out of there!!!

we can't just leave, can we?!!
so we went to the counter...
n each of us paid our individual bills...
was supposed to be $6.50...
but the included gst rose it up to $7.65!!!
that's like a dollar more!!!
further still..
jaline and apple changed their pepsi to lemon tea...
cost them another dollar!!!
in total...
we paid just a lil over 40 bucks!!!
**heartache**

on the way...
we dropped by to get sok khing's dad a cake for his birthday...
at the cake shop..
there were donuts!!!
includiogn my favourite type!!!
apple and eeshan bought 7 and gave one to me for my birthday!!!
oh how thoughtful of em!!!
the donut looks like this..

# The Walnut Ring & A Sweet Cup Of Tea

loved it lots!!! :)

- Hazell Ray

charli's 14 and no time for the birthday...sigh

2008-02-15T07:08:00.000-08:00

todays the 15th of february...
the day when...
I TURN 14!!!
yipee..not so yipee.
just returned from camp today...
super exhausted!!!
came home and had a quick shower...
then i had piano lessons!!!
n lastly..
had to go to church for daily- Friday mass..
and stations of the cross...
[happens in a red moon!!!]...
had dinner out...
came home...
had a chat with my godparents...
then swtchied on the tv n took my position on the couch...

as u can see...
there's almost no time to celebrate!!!
no cake..
3 presents..
smsses...
a blog title from syafiqah...
a long dedicated post from my bluetack...
n those kind stuff...
but really...
it's the thought that counts...
very very much...
it's smthn u gotta see in someone...
like today when fadilah sabo-ed me...
i could tell that she totally cared..
fadilah-someone i'll love forever!!!
and i'll be celebrating with my godparents next wk...

so my 14th birthday ain't all that bad...
i guess...
unfortunately...
all good things..
even if they were not so good..
must come to an end..
tmr.. i'll be 14 yrs and a day older!!!
let's hope it'll be a better day...

- Hazell Ray

it's bittersweet, knocks me off of my feet.

2008-02-05T20:03:00.000-08:00

i try as i may and i always fail...
thats becuase some girl and her ppl spoil everything!!!
everytime i try to get some attention...
i don't coz she and her ppl ALWAYS steal it away from me!!!

today was mdm tay's last day...
made a card and a cake..
baked the cake with talia, made the card with jaline.
so basically...
the whole class kinda gave her smthn coz of the three of us.
n someone decides to "do more to it"...
so they do n hold on to the card!!!
that was pist off point #1.
n then they actually gave mdm tay the card!!!
i was supossed to!!!
not them!!!
pist off point #2.
she made me cry!!!
everyone thought i was upset because mdm tay was leaving...
but no!!
it was all because of her!!!
at least i got a hug from mdm tay!!!
then...
mdm tay even told me not to have funny thoughts going on in my head.
was like as if god was talking to me...
like how did she know?!!
and jaline accompanied me all the way!!!
she's someone i love like crazy!!!

then i head to the bustop..
waited for the 45 for like almost half an hour..
when it came to my stop...
i got off n started walking the usual way...
then when it came to the pavement near 462...
i saw joakim gomez!!!
he smiled and waved!!!
like omg!!!

just this morning some girl breaks my heart into pieces...
and the next thing i know...
the guy whose picture's on my wall walks pass me n heals it all up!!!
man i feel good..
god given day..
INDEED!!!

- Hazell Ray

cakes again!!!

2008-02-03T03:46:00.000-08:00

after kareisa's bday...
cakes were like the most popular present ever!!!!
mdm tay's last day would be wednesday..
so today...
Talia and i head back to my house after church n lunch with steph.
got the ingredients ready...
then we started mixing!!!
we kinda like just dump everything into the bowl n started mixing..

n we needed cocoa...
but we didn't have any..
so we used milo!!!
turned out just fine!!!
baked twice..
i mean..
u gotta bake 2 cakes..
if the first one doesn't qualify...
the second one must!!!
the first one turned out with a crumbly bottom.
and the second one was perfect!!!
gonna pass it to mdm tay along with a card that jaline is designing.
the whole class will personalize their farewell msg to her...
so everyone is involved!!!
can't wait for Wednesday...
but at the same time..
i do wanna wait!!!

- Hazell Ray

time aint waiting no motter what!!!

2008-02-01T03:19:00.000-08:00

today after school...
jaline and i...
we went to help ms wong with the decorating of her homeroom...
we had like loads and loads of fun...
asraf and the 303 crew kept making us laugh!!!
so much joy!!!
we were given work...
of course we were..
that's the part of helping out...
we were suppose to decorate the headings...
so we started...
we weren't happy with our work...
so...
we re-did like eighteen time to get it right!!!
we did only 3 headings...
and took like 3 hours to complete!!!
that's really long!!!
this shows that...
if something ain't perfect..
let it be!!!
lols...
what i really meant was...
don't spend too much time on one thing...
coz u always got more than just that to complete...

- Hazell Ray

the guy who always laughed...

2008-01-29T00:39:00.000-08:00

today...
had lunch with ivy, her sis and apple..
we laughed like lots today!!!
the most - APPLE!!!
she like so couldn't stop!!!
after lunch we started walking to the bustop...
n she was like...
make me laugh somebody!!!
n so..
i made up some story that just popped out of my mouth!!!
i started...
once, there was a boy who loved to laugh...
one day, he passes by a funeral...
he looks at the coffin and laughs..
what so funny abt that?!!
only apple can tell..
she was laughing her head off!!!
n i was making up sequences of events n ended with "he laughed"...
and finally i could stop...
got off the bus n head home-under the rain..
and so...
she laughs!!!

- Hazell Ray

we hit the theatres!!!

2008-01-27T04:16:00.000-08:00

yesterday was crazy!!!
went to watch a movie with jaline...
had lotsa fun!!!
kinda...

first part was a problem...
had lunch at kfc...
we kinda ordered together n i was holding the money...
and silly me!!
i didn't question the cashier when i recieved less changed..
all thnx to jaline.. we got the extra change back and all was good...

then we hit the theatres....
whatched 27 dresses..
loved the movie.. went really great!!!
then we walked ard north point..
didn't expect it to be so small...
it's dead small!!!

walked into 'cards and such'...
so many lovely gifts and cards...
we were planning to get a card for mdm tay coz she's leaving us soon...
hope we can!!!
sure gonna...

yesterday...
wierd-fun-awesome-amazed by the size- crazy day!!

-Hazell Ray

the boy's got cakes!!!

2008-01-25T00:03:00.000-08:00

2 days to go..
and....
........................
HAPPY BDAY KARESIA!!!
n this yr...
she recieved lotsa cakes?!!
yup..
totally!!!
one was from emily and me...
the other was from apple,ee shan, sock khing and jaline.
both cakes were a mess..

first with mine and em's...
we followed the instructions carefully..
maybe too carefully...
it didn't turn out like we expected it to.
was all crumbly!!!
like a super mini avalanche!!!
did what we could...
transported in to school..
and sucess!!!
reached karesia!!!

Jaline's sock khings, eeshan's and apple's..
a totally different story...
in their case...
they made a blind step..
followed the instructions..
but wrongly..
n it's super blind!!!
they were supposed to add 3/4 spoon of SALT.
they added 3!!!!
like c'mon..
doesn't the word SALT tell u ...
"dun add too mucha me into that whatever it is you're making!!"
the cake turned out salty..
still gave it to karesia..
dunno how she felt abt it..
well...
atleast they tried....

and so..
karesia's got a whole lot of cake for weekend..
she gonna like it..

-Hazell Ray

charli reavealed!!!

2008-01-20T03:50:00.000-08:00

first day of cathecism class...
attened mass together with winsy, talia and steph...
met paul later..
and he's found out!!!
it all started last yr..
we told him that charli wanted his number..
he went roubd finding people who fit the descriptions we gave him..
kept suspecting it was me...
i can't tell him that was me!!!
so i kept telling him i wasn't.
yesterday..
paul went over to steph's...
took stephs phone..
started searching..
looked under charli brown...
found myhandphone number..
he looked under hazell...
steph only saved my house number under my real name..
stupid paul!!!
he's so stupid he's clever!!!
**sigh**
lets just hope things get better...

- Hazell Ray

i wanna be who i was !!!

2008-01-17T05:41:00.000-08:00

this is all her fault!!!
and all those with her!!!
i couldn't take it!!!

today...
we had a re election for the class president...
all of us had our confidential votes..
and apparently..
i topped again!!!
everyone was happy,elated, blah blah blah blah..
all except for her and her crew..
"objection!!"
it's only them shouting that..
not even 5 ppl.!!!
" she a whole year got experience...
give others a chance ah!!!.."
that's exactly why the re election was held..
she totally missed the point...
i was reappointed..
and all thanks to her..
lost my post..
gone down a step..
all because of her and her group of stupid ppl ...
ppl who care less abt anyone but themsleves...

now..
the whole class is breaking up ...
because they could only vote one of the top 3...
they all didn't know who to vote for...
and now...
the whole class hates each other
all because of..
you know who and her ppl...

on the other hand..
my partner's my goodest friend ever..
she's good enough to be my best friend..
unfortunately..
she isn't coz i dun want any..
[avoiding social war here!!!]

back to my point..
i'm working with 2 ppl i love lots and lots..
one..my partner.. as in vice chair person #2.
jaline!!!
and our chair person..
is ..
Shyai!!!
both 2 awesome ppl who make sch a better environment...
lotsa grutches against melissa!!!
none against my ex-co...

- Hazell Ray

slippery straws!!!

2008-01-16T00:49:00.000-08:00

after school...
mushroom soup time!!!
was on our way to uncle mickey's wishbone stall...
met kady and gang...
talked a lil...
learned that shawn pang's a flirt...
not trusting anyone tho...
shawn's still kinda nice...
i think...
so we had a chat..
then set off...
dropped by at the bubble tea shop.
ordered what we wanted.
picked up a straw and...
no!!!
it touches the floor..
i tried it like a hundred time..
everytime... the straw slipped from my hands..
not just me..
everyone else there!!!
apple ,sock khing and ee shan!!!
hate straws..

- Hazell Ray

she's awesome!!!!

2008-01-15T01:03:00.000-08:00

two weeks of school...
long past gone...
met a new girl...
yube,16...
she's so nice to me!!!
we became friends like**snap**!!!
she's like an older sister...
and we love each other lots...
but if she and i were budds....
dun think it'll go too well...
i'm deffinately getting her a b'day gitft for her sweet 16..
26th august...
for all that she's done n will do for me...
totally can't wait!!!

- Hazell Ray

damn that phone!!!

2008-01-02T04:59:00.000-08:00

what happened sometime ago....
was sad...
terribly...
absolutely...
my SGH-Z240 went missing!!!
there are two things i could have done...
NUMBER 1..
i left it in the bus...
NUMBER 2...
i threw it into the bin with my other rubbish...
which ever it may be...
it's in somebody's hands right now..
n he or she is in no position to give it back...
i mean like...
THAT PHONE WAS A BEAUTY!!!
n now it's gone....
deactivated n reactivated my line...
same number different phone...
so dad gives me a spare..
which went totally bongus!!
partly my fault...
dropped it twice..
PaPs gets me a new-old phone which i'm currently using...
no bluetooth !!!
tiny screen..
terrible!!!
if only my beauty had stuck to me....
**sob sob**
**teary eyes**
-the room's flooded-

n charli stays alive....
without her Z240...

-Hazell Ray

CRAMMS!!!

2007-12-14T05:42:00.000-08:00

today was hard in the morning...
tmr's a picnic..
so we hadda go get some finger food for tmr from ntuc
supposed to have gone in the morning...
got up and couldn't even walk..!!!
the cramm was that painful!!!
after i had a shower...
i was all blurred...
my head felt so hot it could blow!!
took a seat on the couch holdin on tightly to my crouch...
it then eased a lil...
got up and it got worse!!!
took some vitamins and could take it no more!!!
took an-hour-nap...
got up and was just fine!!!
it was then when it started to rain...
left for ntuc only at 4.30pm!!!
came home at 8!!
got another coat!!!
so i guess my day ain't that bad...

-Hazell Ray

the remote's back!!! yahoo!!!

2007-12-09T00:27:00.000-08:00

guess what?!!
was a whole clear-the-house-up day today....
n it paid off pretty well..
i was clearing away the newspaper...
n guess what i found?!!
I FOUND THE CABLE REMOTE!!!
the long lost remote back again..
all thnx to me..!!!
even the power puff girls would be up to no good....
i'm all awesome!!!
i know!

-Hazell Ray

shop-shop-shopped till we ached-faint-dropped!!!

2007-12-07T01:48:00.000-08:00

yesterday was pretty awesome...
kinda...
it goes like this..
from 2.30pm all the way till 9!!!
out at orchard.....
spent more than 200 bucks!!!
n the best part is.....
i bought only 2 items..
n that for me...
is a record..
i never came home with only 2 pieces of clothing after shopping...
well...
i guess i have now...
at takashimaya....every dress cost atleast hundred dollars!!!
checked the whole store...
not one was within my budget...
gave up...
went to john little after that...
this time.. it was a different story...
the dresses didn't look good..
NOT ONE BIT!!!
upsetting....
so it was time for dinner...
went to burger king..
our first time in 3 yrs!!!
i had some tender burger thing...
wasn't much..
but i guess it was ok.. for the fact that it was chicken...
so up to here..
i got nthn for my wardrobe...
n thats all gonna change...
burger king was on the underground level...
right on top of burger king was....
THIS FASHION!!!!
[not that exciting]
it was extremely small....
all i got was a pretty cool jacket and a shrug...
so at least i didn't go home empty handed...
used up my last energy on my 2 pieces...
stopped a taxi..
and headed back home...

-Hazell Ray

just my luck... or was it?!!

2007-12-02T21:49:00.000-08:00

yesterday....
my family was suprizingly on time for church...
we left the house on time...
there wasn't enough time to walk...
so we decided to take the taxi...
here comes the lucky part...
we waited like...
less than a minute...
and three taxi's were up for us...
that was in the morning...

so we were at church...
spent some time at the fair at church...
And then...
[the not so lucky part]
my bros fell dead sick!!!
not just either of em..
both of em!!!
i could've stayed a lil longer at church with steph an talia..
but they both fell sick i had to look after em...
that's one...
we left church and waited for a taxi to stop..
took us almost 20 mins to get a cab!!!
i mean like...
SAY WHAT?!!
in the morning 3 cabs stopped..
n at that time...
none?!!
we came home n i still had to look after em...
[make it 2]
there's more to it...
my maid went down to take a walk in the park...
without anyone's permission...
when she came back..
we couldn't find the key to the lock...
we had to find the key everywhere..
just because one person didn't put it back in the right place!!!
[strike 3!!!]
it got worse..
i had calls that kept coming in for me..
one after the other...
i had to keep putting ppl on hold...
i wasn't at peace...
not one single bit...

so the unlucky beats 4 to 1...
**sigh**
tell me about it...

- Hazell Ray

HAIRLESS LEGS AT LAST!!!

2007-12-01T03:34:00.000-08:00

i went over to my aunt's to get the hair off my legs...
i was supposed to get it wax...
and..
ended up shaving most of the hair off...
lol....
i tried waxing...
took 2 days just to get half of one leg done...
i mean like...OUCH!!!
I did like half of the half of my leg on the first day...
the next day did the other half...
n gave up!
today...
got it all shaved off and got the job done...
now all i have to worry abt is the hair on my head...
disastrous...
gt get smthn done...
then i'll be at peace and all ready for christmas!!!
great plan..
all gonna work out..

-Hazell Ray

kasper!!!!

2007-11-26T04:34:00.000-08:00

today was awesome!!!
like totally!!!
well..
it started off....
not so awesome...
Michelle, kady , talia and i...
met up at amk mrt...
wanted to get fadilah a gift for her bday...
at times...
they converse in chinese..
n chinese totally ain't my thing..
i dun get a word..
that's when i get a lil pist.
so today...
went to mini toons...
got what we wanted...
then head to fair price ntuc...
got some cream n sushi...
then we split...
kady n talia went to watch a movie..
Michelle n i...
we just hung around...
THEN...
we saw kasper..
i mean...
at first...
we didn't know it was him...
he had brown hair...
but the glasses stayed the same...
white as ever..
totally knew it was him...
he like the nicest person i've met my whole life...
the nicest guy actually..
**heart meltz**
today..
he was so cool!!!
brown hair..
jeans...
and a polo...
a sling too...!!
awesome!!
kasper...
sure knows howda dress...
awesome!!!

-hazell ray

christ the king feast day - bro..what were u doing?!!

2007-11-24T05:09:00.000-08:00

feast day....
today...
AWESOME-GREAT-OKay-bad-terrible
my rating...
OKay....
my bro was performing...
he fell down like a dozen times..
ON PURPOSE!!...
he's the lead actor..
gave him some tips...
coached him...
all in vain...
he had no emotion...
if only he did..
went pretty well tho...
he wasn't that bad...
really...
so it's...
uh....
okay...
and..
thats that.

-Hazell Ray

NO MORE CABLE TV!!!!!

2007-11-23T01:17:00.000-08:00

why?!?!?
this morning...
i woke up...
drank my chicken essence...
n sat in front of the tv.
at that moment..
my bro just HAD to tell that the cable stopped working...
i mean like...
what??!!
at first i didn't believe him..
i tried it out for myself..
n damn he's right...
but after much thinking...
i think it's ok...
like before this...
we had to keep going to the box to change the channel...
we kinda....
lost the remote control...
so yeah..
there u have it...
no more remote...
[ain't that bad]
no more cable....
[NO!!!]....

MY BRO DID AWESOME!!!

2007-11-22T06:40:00.000-08:00

guess what?!!
my bro scored a 185 for his PSLE!!
i mean...
i noe it's an NA mark..
but look on the bright side...
its PRETTY HIGH NA mark...
he has so many choices...
it's kinda weird tho..
last yr when i took the examination..
i scored As in everything but math...
my bro scored a wonderful A for math...
the other thing is...
he scored another A for English...
but as for his science n Tamil...
he scored Cs...
like c'mon...
how can anyone score a 185...
with 2 As n 2 Cs?!!
thats what i don't get..
but what the hey?!!
my bro did it!!!
who cares abt what comes next?!!

- Hazell Ray....

Paul was at my doorstep! - i had the worst day yesterday...

2007-11-19T20:15:00.000-08:00

two days ago....
paul was at my doorstep...
n i went wild...
i was like...
"go away!!! what are u doing here?!!"
i can't believe i said those stuff...
i like totally embarrassed myself in front of him....
dammit!!!
in the end....
all he wanted to do
was sell me 'walls' ice-cream...
this was 2 days ago..

yesterday...
one day ago...
the performing arts group...
had sandcastle building at east coast beach...
hated it... like totally...
i was looking forward to it....
and it was all spoilt...
everytime i wanted to help out...
someone comes in and
"let me do it!"
and because everyone wants me to 'let them do it'...
i had nothing to do...
during the barbercue..
everyone like left me alone..
they just didn't care..
all those whom i called ' my friends'
luckily for me there were kasper n dexter..
2 sec3 seniors who cared...
they saw me so glum and approached me...
they cheered me up...
like alot..
there was this sec4 girl from choir...
her name is ai mei..
she kept me company the whole time my friends left me alone.
so i guess my day didn't go that bad...
there were ppl who did care...

n one more thing...
my comp's workin again!!

- Hazell the Ray

boo hoo hoo!!!! sob sob

2007-10-24T02:33:00.000-07:00

My first entry and it's not a happy one...
today just felt terrible...
absolutely terrible...

first terrible thing that happened today....
i stepped on cat poo...

second terrible thing that happened .....
my classmate knew i liked him....
sounds like its good news?...
totally isn't for me...

third terrible thing that happened today.....
we went to the zoo for a math trail....
we formed our own groups...
one of my classmates were absent...
she and another classmates were the only two girls in the group...
my teacher told me to join her...
i knew no one in that group..
or at least i wasn't close to them like i was to my previous group members...

it didn't stop there...
mum kept yelling at me....
it's been ages since i touched the comp...
all the time I've spent today accumulates to 3 hours only.

misery....misery...misery....misery
yresim l misery
misery...misery...misery....misery
yresim l misery
misery....misery...misery....misery
yresim l misery
misery...misery...misery....misery
yresim l misery
misery...misery...misery....misery

-Hazell The Ray

That cube drives people nuts!!!!

2007-10-23T01:55:00.000-07:00

i don't know what's so interesting abt that stupid cube....
it's the nuttiest thing i've ever seen my whole life...
i know there's some formula n stuff...
but i hate it...
is it even like in?!!
like..
only our students are into this cube...
i've got better stuff to do then solve some dum cube puzzle..
it drives ppl nuts!!!
n i mean nuts..!!
like when i asked kady a question..
she was like...
uh.. what?!..
n i asked her again...
n she was like...
uh.. what?!!
n it's all because of that stupid cube!!!!
darn that cube!!!

- hazell ray

All In The Ray

*humph*

if only...

damn it!

ouch!!!

Dear ami ang!

charli turned 15 on the 15th!!!

i wonder....

she lent me her shoes...

in particular....

SCHOOL SUCKS!!

yesterday was bad...today was great!

sometimes...it just seems real stupid.

grad night.... GREAT NIGHT!!!

that's called a holiday?!

a morning full of shit...

finally!!!

good day gone bad...

sometimes... lame..is the element of fun!!!

what the xkdjhkdzfhgkuhik ?!!!!

when u gotta let go.....U GOTTA LET GO!!!!

the guy who called me cute... *yeep!*

time to move on...

unsure... =(

why me?!!

=(

im RUINING MY OWN LIFE!!!!

busy busy me

great and great!!!

drops once again.

things are starting to go the opposite way.. =)

charli's a total misfit!!!

boo sickling me!! =(

7 things i hate about me =( , 7 things i like about me =)

give me a break!!! *im begging*

me and you and a setting in a honeymoon....

burn baby burn!

how blutack... and why bluetack?!!

i walk a lonely raod...

it feels like holy spirit!!!

4 minutes...tick-tock tick-tock tick-tock

this you gotta see!!!

so someone out there does know!

this GEO sucks!!!!!

guess it aint all that bad

" SO STUPATE!!!"

[ me + 24 hours] - food = sacrifice

for every bad thing... there's smthn good!!!

run like the wind!!!... and drink it right!!!

what's with the hair?!!

a hell of a physics paper!!!

what a day in the cd shelter!!!

the hut's earned a solid 40 bucks!!!

charli's 14 and no time for the birthday...*sigh*

it's bittersweet, knocks me off of my feet.

cakes again!!!

time aint waiting no motter what!!!

the guy who always laughed...

we hit the theatres!!!

the boy's got cakes!!!

charli reavealed!!!

i wanna be who i was !!!

slippery straws!!!

she's awesome!!!!

damn that phone!!!

CRAMMS!!!

the remote's back!!! yahoo!!!

shop-shop-shopped till we ached-faint-dropped!!!

just my luck... or was it?!!

HAIRLESS LEGS AT LAST!!!

kasper!!!!

christ the king feast day - bro..what were u doing?!!

NO MORE CABLE TV!!!!!

MY BRO DID AWESOME!!!

Paul was at my doorstep! - i had the worst day yesterday...

boo hoo hoo!!!! **sob sob**

That cube drives people nuts!!!!

humph

the guy who called me cute... yeep!

give me a break!!! im begging

charli's 14 and no time for the birthday...sigh

boo hoo hoo!!!! sob sob